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Seraphim Moonshadow

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Good things of the Earth

As I sit and think on this night, I think of all the good things of this earth. The rain, the stars, the cool breeze, the scent of pine. I just finished Kingdom Hearts II, and the music is playing softly in the background. Music, games...You know, I always wanted to design and make games. I...hope that I earn my place enough to actually do such a thing in heaven. I know there are greater things, but I do love art. I do...and I love the ability to be able to use my talents for good.

I think of art...of writing...of all the talents God gave me...but yet, part of me withholds, because I know I have more important things to do. I guess it's giving up a part of yourself for perhaps something that might be better. Or that you must give something that you love up for the better good, kind of like talents you have but that you aren't meant to use at this point in time because you have to focus on something else, or give up some part of selfish desire.

I think of the good times, the bad times, and in my heart, I'm happy. Why? Because I know that I can go on and progress. And my heart aches because of my imperfection, but I...and I have much to learn about many things. But my time here is short. You might think, "And you're doing what with your time now?" seeing as it's after one AM? Well...I guess...I'm just thinking. Thinking about the happiness inside, the peace inside. Fabrics of a better world. What do you think?

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Sakura

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Re: Good things of the Earth

What i think? I think you are absolutley right. When i came out to visit Utah, i was really excited and couldn't wait, but when i arrived in Utah i felt dead. Not in the real sense, but spiritually i was. Nothing i did ever made it go away. Occasionally i would forget about the feeling but eventually i would remember it. Today when i was home i really felt alive. I have got a really strong answer to my doubts. For a while i was thinking staying in Missouri for two more years was a bad idea, but these past two weeks i was proved to be wrong. I guess something good will come from staying here. I have to admit that there is nothing wrong being here, but i hate being in a ward where i'm about to be the only one my age. I have no problem with this i guess, but i still will miss the association of having people going through the same stage as me. Relief Society is really great, but it is hard to listen to a lesson pointed for those already married. Maybe i could gain the knowledge for latter, but it is hard to listen because it doesn't apply to me. Maybe i'm the only one who thinks this way. I'm thinking about going to single's with Stephanie if she will take me. I don't know though, because i really feel that one of my younger friends needs me to be around and if i leave my ward for another that she will do something that she shouldn't. I'm so confused.

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Mostly everyone in the church is leaving Missery to join those Utards. Dang it.

Seraphim Moonshadow

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Re: Good things of the Earth

Well, think about it. Progress and progression. You can either get stuck in someplace, where you feel comfy, and never grow, or you can take the opportunity to experience a new situation.

Instead of thinking of not being married, invision yourself of what you would do, and why you would do it when you're married. Try to think of it as a learning experience--learning from other's mistakes, and what you can do to avoid them in your future marriage.

I HATED being in a ward with no one my age! I was for several years. I was tear-ridden happy when I actually got to be around people my age, like I am now. It drove me insane!

Remember, other people are responsible for their own actions, and when you have authority over someone, it's to guide them, not back them into a corner.

You can always pray and fast about going to Singles Ward. Or maybe even go once and see if it's for you, or even alternate every other week.

There are so many options! All you have to do is choose.

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Sakura

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Re: Good things of the Earth

That is very true and i have gone to singles activity where i was thus called a child. I must say that i was deply offended. I hate being called a child. it probably didn't help that i was wearing overalls and my hair in pig tails, but i went straight from work and didn't have time to change. I know that i shouldn't have been offended, but it still hurt. I know people say that when your older you'll apprecaite looking young, but right now i hate it beyond all reason. Why go to a place where people slightly accept you and only because you have a brother with you that everyone tends to like being around? I know having fun is the matter of the mind but right now i don't feel like going to singles and it is mostly personal opinion than anything else.

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Mostly everyone in the church is leaving Missery to join those Utards. Dang it.

jerbl

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Re: Good things of the Earth

Acceptance is hard no matter the age, I find that I have to create my own kind of acceptance, because my role is to lead and I unfortunately don't have the luxury of feeding off of others.

Sakura

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Re: Good things of the Earth

That is why i'm glad that i am not first born. when first born you have to act a certain way, because those after you follow you in your decisions good or bad.

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Mostly everyone in the church is leaving Missery to join those Utards. Dang it.

Seraphim Moonshadow

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Re: Good things of the Earth

Who cares if you wear pigtails? I wear pigtails. Big deal.

Just remember who you are. ^.^

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Sakura

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Re: Good things of the Earth

Well that is true but when i where pig tails it makes me look even younger than i already do. I still wear pigtails i find no problem doing that. I love them in fact. Now that my brothers no longer at home, i really don't care.

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Mostly everyone in the church is leaving Missery to join those Utards. Dang it.

Seraphim Moonshadow

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Re: Good things of the Earth

Hahaha, because they can't tease ya, right? I should totally wear pigtails today! In fact, I think I will...once I find my brush...some...where....

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Sakura

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Re: Good things of the Earth

Haha you'll have to post a picture so that i may see. yea...I think one day next week i'll wear pigtails. I will see. It depends upon how i feel. Yup.

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Mostly everyone in the church is leaving Missery to join those Utards. Dang it.

Seraphim Moonshadow

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Re: Good things of the Earth

Lol, it gave me a killer headache. I'm really sensetive about where I wear my hair, which is one main reason I keep my ponytail so low.

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